SO! What am I doing?

It may seem like I've given up on some high priority things, but I assure you, I have not! So, here's what's up.

1. I want to change the world. I want to change EVERYTHING. I know how to do it, roughly, but I need a few things before I can get there. I'm working on it. But things are starting to make more sense as I go along. It's just tough knowing I have a time limit on this. I need to build it all up a bit... I need some allies on this, and I don't know where to find them.

2. I am designing some BEAUTIFUL hand-made cards for selling. They're basically just careful, clean, clear, simple collages of different textured papers. They're left mostly empty, so the purchaser can write or draw whatever they want, or can pay me a bit extra to do something fancy for them. That's the basic idea, anyways.

3. I have plans to start doing some more bookmarks. Roughly a hundred of 'em. I don't mind making them, but cutting the matte board is MURDER. Such a tedious task. I need a table slicer... Admittedly, this is where I'm REALLY slacking off.

4. I'm putting together a display for my art booth. Unfortunately, at this rate, I won't be able to go back to the Farmer's market until next spring! I'm not going back until I have four of my best works framed for display, the album prepared for my audience, a less slip-shod working surface AND a properly assembled portfolio. I'm planing to make a sign as well, but I haven't drawn up any designs yet. I'm slacking on framing my drawings because, yet again, matte board. I hate that stuff in so many ways. I want the portfolio so people who want to commission me can see some actual works I've done, not photos or prints.

5. My job sucks. I keep being forced to wake up at 5 or 6 in the morning, just to work an 8 or 9 hour shift. By the time I get home, all I want to do is sit around and stare into space. My dad says I spend too much time on the computer. Frankly, if I didn't have a computer, he'd say I spend too much time masturbating. Art is fun, but it is also WORK. And after a full day shift on nowhere near enough sleep, I am NOT working. I wish I got more afternoon shifts. I ask for morning shifts on mondays only, so I can play D&D, and THIS is what they do to me. Just LOVELY. This gives me two days out of the week to do basic chores and try to progress some on my art.

6. My parents have decided I should pay rent. 'Bout time. I've been waiting. 300$ a month. Simple. And cheap. I can handle it, but they chose a bad time. My account's being drained into art supplies, a commission I requested from K1k0, food for work, savings for a car, and clothing which I never seem to have quite enough of. It's like my circumstances keep changing, eliminating half of my wardrobe. For example, what colour shirt am I allowed to wear at work? White. How many white shirts do I have? Just enough to get me through the week. And one of them's pretty ratty. Wouldn't be such a problem, but I spend so much goddamned time at work, I can't wear any of my other nice clothes! And my workplace is destroying my only good white shirts!

7. I worked on some miniatures a while back... Assembled a couple, primed a few that had been waiting for it for almost a year... Put a proper base on the ice golem... Nothing much to say. Nothing completed, they're just collecting dust again.

8. Animethon is coming, slowly but surely. I hope I get my display done before then. My booth at the artist alley will be the first field test for some of this stuff. I want to see what does well and what fails. And if I can handle fan-people. A building full of people like DL? I dunno, man...

9. Where the fuck is KT? And Drew? And Tay? And DL? Hell, I haven't even really seen Kyle much! Where the hell are you guys?! Don't make me trick you into going places to have fun! I don't like organizing things, and will probably be forced to use bear traps!

10. I'm. Really. Lonely. Aren't there any nice girls out there who have something in common with me and AREN'T already taken? This has kept me awake at LEAST two extra hours every night. I can't get it out of my brain. It's really depressing.

11. D&D is going sort of well. Weekly seems to have become an accidental bi-weekly. However, with the appearance of other players, the consistency will probably increase. Especially with one of them swearing at me if I miss giving them a ride.

12. Hey, do any of you guys want to come over to my house next weekend and just, like, sit around and be crude and listen to music and stuff?

13. Speaking of music, TENEMENT NOISE!!! Is going slow. Ty is the only really active member, and it sucks. I'm trying, but I have all of this other stuff to deal with as well, so like the miniatures, it tends to get pushed aside a lot. And when I do work on it, I spend a lot of time fiddling around just trying to get it right. I know how it SHOULD sound, I just have to muffle it with a pillow, amplify the volume, record some children playing, lower their pitch, lower their volume... etc. It's time consuming for all of, like, a six second clip of sound. This is on other things. I have lots of ideas, and I seem to be trying to do them all at once in whatever order they strike me as being important. So I've finished... Nothing thus far.

14. ATC is cool, yeah, but I wish I had someone to trade with. What's the point in making them, if all I'm collecting are my own drawings?